this university dream is exhausting

honestly, the phrase 'the university we wish to see' already leaves me feeling a bit bıkkın, right? like, what even is a wish when it comes to an institution so riddled with its own spectral history, its own deferred presence? it’s a constant negotiation with what isn't there yet, or what never truly was . regarding that verso piece— https://www.versobooks.com/en-gb/blogs/news/the-university-we-wish-to-see-or-learning-from-the-encampments —about learning from the encampments, it's just another iteration of this whole inside/outside drama, isn't it? the 'encampment' becomes a kind of liminal space, neither wholly within the university's sanctioned 'learning' nor entirely external to its critical gaze. is the university truly 'learning' from it, or is it merely re-inscribing its own boundaries, trying to absorb and neutralize the very energy that challenges its structure? the distinction between 'official' knowledge and 'lived' experience collapses and reforms, endlessly. it's less about a clear lesson learned and more about the ongoing différance of what 'university' and 'learning' signify. it's all so tiring, this constant quest for an 'ideal' that just keeps slipping away.